Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 20 Almonds (B), muller light, banana

Lunch - steak fajita wrap - 20 syns, kit kat  - 11.5 syns, 2 satsumas. 1 x cream crunch biscuit - 3.5 syns

Dinner - fish pie - 1 syns
Snacks/Other - n/a
Total syns - 36

Activity - none

Firstly,  my phone has stopped autocorrecting the word "syn", which is amazing in itself since it still corrects my brother's name to Jojoba. 

Secondly,  slightly better than yesterday. No healthy A but I did eat all those babybels so my calcium should be fine. Plus I've actually started remembering to take my calcium tablets for the last few days so really it evens out.

I really thought the wrap would be good on syns  - it certainly didn't taste like 20. Not worth it. Should have had the Subway salad. The kit kat was because of a meal deal and the biscuit was because someone gave it to me. 

I did briefly wonder whether it would be worth printing up a sign or even a t-shirt that says "Do not feed". Is that rude?

Food and Activity Diary

For Yesterday

Breakfast - 2 babybels (A), 2 more babybels - 6 syns, 20 almonds (B), banana

Lunch - squares bar - 5.5 syns, 1.25 sandwiches from the buffet leftovers 14 syns (?), 2 satsumas, muller light

Dinner -  vegetable puff - ? syns, cheese swirly - ? syns, toffee sunday - ? syns, oreo chocolate - ? syns, 2 x babybels - 6 syns
Snacks/Other - n/a
Total syns- ? lots

Activity - none

That's it. That's honestly the end of the buffet. I even resisted the end of the cake today but that's the only good thing I can say. As for the rest, I think I'm testing myself. How much crap can I eat in a week and what exactly is the effect? It's like a science experiment - now I've have a kind of base line (i.e. Slimming World). Yeah, yeah. Excuses, excuses. I just wanted chocolate and sugary things.

Anyway, if I put on weight this week it will be totally justified. But I got to eat ice-cream and cake and nice things so it won't be a total waste.

Acutally, it's working

In spite of my very undisciplined week, I am starting to feel the benefits of this round of SW. 9lbs is not to be sniffed at. My mum thinks she can see it on me and I put my jeans on this morning and I feel less squished in and generally less like a sausage.

Food and Activity Diary

For yesterday

Breakfast - n/a

Lunch - 2 x babybels (A), turkey tikka chunks, clementines, banana, squares bar 5.5 syns, 20 almonds (B), cake - ? syns (lots)

Dinner - lemon sole - 4 syns, veg and potatoes, fruit and yogurt - 2 syns, 2 cans of carlsburg - 20 syns, half a bottle of wine 16 - syns, several rich tea biscuits - 5 syns
Snacks/Other -
Total syns- more than 47

Activity - none

Still eating the food that is being given to me for free. Alas, I cannot resist. As for the alcohol, I'm not sure why, I just felt like it last night. I know this isn't going to be helping in the long run but I'm clearly in a lazy faze at the moment.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - bagel with pastrami

Lunch - work buffet lunch, cake

Dinner - work buffet leftovers 
Snacks/Other - yoghurt, wine
Total syns- unknown

Activity - none

Since work were willing to feed me today, who am I to refuse? I hate wasting food and it will be stale by tomorrow.  Plus the added advantages of being free and I don't have to cook. And I can rationalise cake. Sort of.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - muller light,  2 x babybels (A), 20 almonds (B)

Lunch - cheese roll - 12 syns (?), sushi - 2 syns, 2 x clemetines 

Dinner - bacon, broccoli pasta
Snacks/Other - 2 x squares bars - 11 syns
Total syns- 25

Activity - none

Okay, so maybe not quite back on it completely but at least I counted today and all the squares bars are gone so that's out of the way now.

Black Hole

No diaries for Tuesday and Wednesday. I have succumb to the black hole of dieting and have just written them off. I know this isn't the best thing to do but I think I went into sweetener overload on Tuesday and ended up going a bit dolally.

I tried to make cupcakes based on an angel food cake recipe and the amount of sweetener that went into them was just mind blowing. For some reason it seemed worse than if I was using sugar. It must be psychological, but I suppose I think of sweetener as rather artificial and unhealthy, whereas sugar is a least a natural substance. Add to the fact that I drink diet coke and I just felt a bit... well, weird.

Anyway, after the cupcakes - which were okay, but had the consistency of white bread and tasted a bit like brioche - I seemed to turn on my sweet tooth and that was that.

But back on it today. Will have to think of something to offset the last few days.

Meal Plan w/c 17-6-2014, -1.5lb

Weigh in - 16st 13lb

Yay! I shouldn't really freak myself out weighing in at home. I was beginning to wonder what I was doing wrong. I'm very pleased with with that. I have always had a bit of a psychological thing about getting past a stone marker so I'm glad I'm in the 16s now. I feel a bit more "normal", relatively speaking.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 20 almonds (B), 2 babybels (A), grapes

Lunch - 2 small tesco sushi packs - 3 syns, squares bar - 5.5 syns

Dinner - Salad with smoked salmon and egg
Snacks/Other -none
Total syns- 8.5

Activity - none

I haven't been especially hungry today and by tea time I wasn't in the mood for anything too involved, hence the salad. Looking back at my week, and in spite of the slip ups, I've been pretty much on plan. I hope that shows on the scales tomorrow.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 2  babybels (A), aldi greek yoghurt, banana

Lunch - salad with smoked salmon

Dinner - spaghetti with smoked salmon, courgette and lemon-quark sauce
Snacks/Other - 20 Almonds (B), grapes, 20 almonds (B) Thorntons chocolate bar - 12 syns, 2 clementines,
Total syns- 12 syns

Activity - none

Yes, smoked salmon is the order of the day as I have just defrosted some. Will probably still be eating it tomorrow. Shame I can't have it on a wedge of soda bread with butter though.

My Lunchbox Today

If only... It actually had salad, smoked salmon and nuts in it.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 2 malted milks - 5 syns, 2 babybels (A), 20 almonds (B)

Lunch - Aldi greek yoghurt, cucumber and pepper sticks with quark dip, tomato

Dinner -SW spag bol, greek yohurt and berries
Snacks/Other - banana, 45g thorntons chocolate - 12 syns
Total syns-17

Activity - 15min walk to work.

I'm midway through the week and I have, at least compared to last week, been quite good. I would hope to be showing a loss on the scales by now but I'm not. There are a few things it could be - for the last few days I haven't really done meals, so having a 3rd free food at a sitting just didn't happen. Even though I kept to my syns, I suppose the balance wasn't there. Also, I came on today, so probably a bit of water retention added into the mix. Plus, going off the rails on Tuesday. I hope that it evens out a bit over the next few days. I really don't want to put on weight on my third weigh-in. I am a little bit over today but I'm just going to take that on the chin. I needed chocolate and already split the bar in half. Quarters would be just too sad.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 20 almonds (B), 2 babybels, squares bar - 5.5 syns, 2 malted milks - 5 syns

Lunch - banana, clementine, couscous, 2 small sushi packs from Tesco - 3 syns, 2 clementines,

Dinner - Lettuce wraps with bacon, prawns and salad, quark dressing
Snacks/Other - cucumber sticks
Total syns-13.5

Activity -15 minute walk home from work

Today was a ridiculous day. I got a last minute appointment for my insoles (to help my broken foot) at 8.45 this morning so the day started off really bitty and just continued that way. I didn't really have meals. I just ate when I could. The meals above are only approximate; I've basically put things down in chronological order at about the time of day I ate them. I know this isn't good SW practice but I did keep to my syns at least.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 2 x weetabix (B), 100ml milk - 2 syns, banana, pineapple

Lunch - subway salad with chicken tikka and light mayo - 3 syns

Dinner - courgette and cheese (A) pancakes, 2 glasses of wine - 8 syns
Snacks/Other - grapes, 2 x satsumas
Total syns-13

Activity - none

I'm on a bit of an egg run at the moment. I aimed for courgette fritters but the consistency was more like pancakes. They were very nice though and really quick. I will post the recipe if you are interested. See link to the side.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -2 babybels (A)

Lunch - eggy bread with 2 slices of brown bread (B) and extra eggs, 2 satsumas

Dinner -pasta with tomato and vegetable sauce
Snacks/Other -2 malted milks - 5 syns, Aldi greek yoghurt, 2 glasses of wine - 8 syns
Total syns - 13

Activity - none

I am so tired today. I think I caught the sun a bit walking Cooper-dog yesterday, and my hayfever was horrible so it's just got on top of me. I'm not allowed ibuprofen while I have my Exogen machine so I've been relying on paracetamol to deal with my headache and it's just not the same.

On the plus side, I found a really nice way of doing eggs that would work well for a stirfry or fried rice. It's probably really obvious but I've never done them like this before. I added Worcester sauce and instead of scrambling them slowly in a saucepan, I scrambled them really quickly in a hot frying pan - sort of like you see them do it in American films. So good I had to have seconds. They were much drier than I would normal like but they were almost meaty and tasted a bit like chicken.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - Banana, 2 x babybels (A), 20 almonds (B)

Lunch - Tesco Mediterranean puff 22(?) syns, 1/2 a Subway salad with chicken tikka pieces and light mayo - 3syns

Dinner -Rest of the Subway salad, slice of lemon cake - 7 syns
Snacks/Other -2 glasses of wine - 10 syns
Total syns - 42

Activity - 50 minute leisurely dog walk

I thought that a little treat from tesco should be okay, then I tried to syn it up and although it's a guess based on the closest thing I could find, I'm still kind of shocked. I can't believe it was that many. No wonder I put on all that weight.

Meal plan w/c 11-6-2014, -0.5lbs

Weigh in 17st 0.5lb

Half a pound off.  How? Frankly, it's more than I deserved considering two massive blow-outs this week. I said I'd be more than happy if I maintained. So I am more than more than happy with a half pound loss!

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 20 almonds (B), 2 babybels (A), 2 satsumas, yoghurt - 1.5 syns

Lunch - Baked potato - 1.5 syns with quark

Dinner -super-omlette (3 eggs), 2 x malted milk biscuits - 5 syns
Snacks/Other - Banana x 2, satsumas x 3
Total syns - 8

Activity - none

I'm going to skip reviewing the meal from the Thindian until the next time I go. They seem a bit overwhelmed at the moment so service wasn't really running very smoothly, but they have just opened so I'm going to give them the benefit of the doubt and try them again once they've bedded in.

As for today, I wonder if it is possible to overdose on satsumas? I've had five today. Surely that's excessive?

Anyway, since I had such a lot of syns yesterday, I thought I'd have another super-omlette in the hope it will perform the same weight-loss miracle that it seemed to last week. This time it actually looked like a proper omlette (I only used 3 eggs this time, so that could be it) and I felt quite please with the result.

Food and Activity Diary

From Yesterday

Breakfast -

Lunch - Halloumi 35g (A), big salad

Dinner - Thindian - Ruli Chicken Chilka (2 syns?), salad, about a tablespoon pilau rice (0.5 syns?), onion bhaji (4 syns?), samosa (4 syns?), small lamb kebab (2 syns?), grilled chicken (0 syns?), raita(1 syn?) , 2 slices of cake - (14 syns)  about 4 glasses of wine - 20 syns (?)
Snacks/Other -20 almonds (B), 2 satsumas
Total syns- unknown, probably close to 47.5 syns

Activity -  none

Because of the low oil/fat ethos of the Thindian takeaway, it won't have had as many syns as a full blown Indian so I've knocked a few off each of the items and took and educated guess where there wasn't anything similar.

Not as big a disaster as Tuesday, but I hadn't anticipated cake or quite so much wine! Still, you have to let your hair down sometimes.

If I maintain this week, considering my lack of discipline, I will be happy.

Food and Activity diary

Breakfast - 20 Almonds (B), 2 babybels (A), banana

Lunch -(weekend, so ends up a kind of brunch)

Dinner - Slow cooker veggie stew
Snacks/Other - Grapes and cherries, 2 satsumas, 2 malted milks - 5 syns, choc-orange options - 3 syns(?)
Total syns- 8

Activity - none

Bloomin' heck. Cramps again (not as bad though, but no quark this time). I clearly cannot handle a high protein dinners without carbs. I don't know how Atkins dieter do it.

Even though I've been doing SW properly since majorly loosing it on Wednesday, I'm a bit nervous that'll I'll undo all the good work by binging out that one day. I've been avoiding the scales at work, even though deep down I think I'm being a bit cowardly.

Tomorrow is our Thindian takeaway night, so I'm conscious of that as well. I think I'm just going to go no syns at all tomorrow except for the takeaway and hopefully that will balance things out.

Need to get my light trousers washed and dried for SW on Tuesday.

I have a bit of a dilemma on Tuesday actually.  SW starts as 8.30am, which I could go to but I won't be able to stay for the meeting because I have an appointment at 9am. But I want to give myself the best chance of recording a loss, so I don't really want to go to a later meeting (she's there all day).

I think Mum is coming with me this week as well, because she has something on on her day. Maybe she won't want to go the 8.30 meeting, which would make the decisions for me.

....

I got brave. I checked the scales and currently maintaining which isn't bad for a) weighing in the afternoon, and b) wearing my jeans.

Food and Activity Diary

Amendment to yesterday - I actually forgot to eat the babybels

Breakfast - 20 almonds (B), 2 satsumas, yoghurt - 1.5 syns

Lunch - 30g cheddar cheese (A) and salad

Dinner - Bacon, an egg, mushroom and tomato.
Snacks/Other - Grapes and cherries, 2 malted milk biscuits - 5 syns
Total syns-6.5

Activity - none

I am having to tack on a few biscuits at the end of the day to bump me over 5 syns. I just haven't been bothered today. I may have replaced my chocolate addiction with Yahoo Answers. Fewer calories, but devours time.

Freudian slip

Today I said to someone that I was blobbing, not blogging. Underlying state of mind possibly revealing itself? Maybe. I do feel rather blob-like at the moment. Last night I was sat on a low stool in front of the mirror so I could cut my hair, which I hated so much in my previous post, and there were definite echoes (or perhaps I should say reflections) of Jabba the Hut.

Food and Activity Diary

From yesterday - several turkey bites and a syn free muffin

Breakfast - 2 x weetabix (B), 100ml milk - 2 syns, banana

Lunch - Turkey Indian bites from light bites, salad and couscous

Dinner - Left over fish pie - 1.5 syns
Snacks/Other - 2 x babybels (A), 2 glasses of wine - 8 syns, clementine, satsuma
Total syns - 11.5

Activity - none

That's a bit more like it.

Back on it

Eating my weetabix and banana, starting the day as I mean to go on.

Food and Activity Dairy

Breakfast - Banana, 20 almonds (B)

Lunch - cheese twist - 2 syns (?), 8 choc-chip hobnobs - 20 - syns (?) red velvet cupcake - 17 syns (?), cookies and cream chocolate bar 13 syns (?)

Dinner - Turkey burger with salad
Snacks/Other -2 babybels (A), 2 glasses of wine - 8 syns
Total syns - 60

Activity - none

Well, today kind of went to pot in a basket. I have had approximately four days worth of syns in one day. I wasn't organised. I ended up watching a film at my brother's house while dogsitting and raiding his cupboard. Then I felt guilty and went to the supermarket replace the biscuits and bought other synful stuff as well. I've done my best to syn them up but they are just guesses based on the closest thing I could find at the SW website. I'm sure a cheese twist would be more than 2 syns.

But, I'm not ignoring it. I'm owning up to it now and the rest of the week can be back on track, except for the takeaway on Sunday of course. Don't see me loosing 7lbs again this week!

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -Banana, 20 Almonds (B)

Lunch -

Dinner -Fish pie - 1.5 syns
Snacks/Other -2 babybels (A), 2 glasses of wine - 8 syns
Total syns-9.5

Activity - half hour leisurely dog walk

I was rushing around this morning so I didn't eat properly. I know that isn't ideal but I wasn't especially hungry and I didn't feel unwell so I think I got away with it for today. Normally, I'd be headachy and moody. I mean, I was moody, but that's because of other people taking the proverbial. Three in one day. Like buses, they were.

Still, the fish pie worked out really nicely and I thought it was would only serve two, but we both were full after a quarter of it so I get leftovers which means two less meals to worry about.

Meal plan w/c 4-6-2014, -7lbs

I'm going to save my weekly meal plans/diaries with the weight changes so I can go back and repeat if I need inspiration.

Weigh in - 17st 1lb

Oh my god, I lost 7lbs. I thought I'd loose about 3, maybe 4 if the scales went in my favour. But 7lbs! That's half a stone. And about three pounds of that is since yesterday when I weighed myself at work. The super-omlette must have been super in more ways than one.

Its normal when you get back on plan you get really good weight losses so I know that next week won't be anything close, but it's a great boost. I'm a third of the way back to where I was at Christmas.

This is another nice thing about SW. They don't get cross if you have an occasional big weight loss (I used to get stern warnings at WW if I went over 2lbs even for just one week), but my SW consultant is really good about this. She understands that its about loosing over the long term and that there will be weeks when it evens out.

I don't even care that it's probably mostly just water.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -Weetabix x 2 (B), Milk x 100ml - 2 syns, Banana, muller light.

Lunch - Baked potato - 1.5 syns, celery and cucumber with quark dip.

Dinner - Herb, courgette, pepper, onion and tomato omlette.
Snacks/Other - Clementine, 2 x babybels (A), yoghurt - 1.5 syns
Total syns-5

Activity -  none.

That was the nicest omlette I think I've ever had and it didn't even have any proper cheese in it. Maybe that's where I've been going wrong.

I should have had the toast

Oh my god, the cramps!

I think yesterday the combination of almost no carbs and then finishing off with a big whack of dairy was just too much for my stomach to take. Suffice to say, I won't be posting the cheesecake recipe. I might try to modify it, possibly baking it, but as it is I can't think about eating it again. Quark overload. I will only buy one tub this week.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -

Lunch - Big salad with grilled halloumi (A)

Dinner - Bacon, eggs, mushrooms, tomatoes, low syn cheesecake made with 2 malted milks - 5 syns
Snacks/Other - 2 x 125ml white wine - 8 syns, chicken peices, 20 Almonds (B), pinapple
Total syns -13

Activity -none

I'm not sure how much it's cheating but the wine was technically today as I drank it after midnight. Another weekend morning where I have more of a brunch than a lunch but it's just easier that way and at work the almonds meant that I didn't get hungry for ages.

I was going to have toast with my tea, but I fancied something sweet so I made a SW version of a cheesecake with quark mixed with muller light and the biscuits as a base. It's in the freezer setting at the moment so I'm not sure how successful it will be but if is any good I'll put the recipe (in as much as 4 ingredients is a recipe) my recipe blog, see link in side bar.

Eagle-eyed readers will note that I got my skipping rope a few days ago and have yet to report any activity. This is not strictly true. I did try it and I quite liked it, but unfortunately bouncing up and down without appropriate scaffolding is actually painful. So until I find my sports bras (probably banished to a box under the bed), it will have to wait.

I've kind of wimped out on the activity side of things this week. It has just felt to hard to squeeze it in. Or I have felt too lazy, which is probably the same thing. That's definately something I need to work on next week.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -

Lunch - Big salad with grilled halloumi (A), crispbread - 1.5 syns, end of quark and chicken stuffing

Dinner - SW syn free dinner at Mum's
Snacks/Other - Grapes, clemetine, 20 almonds (B), 2 x 125ml white wine - 8 syns
Total syns- 9.5

Activity - none

The wine was essential to the Slimming World plan, otherwise I would have been under 5 syns. I had no choice!

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - Weetabix x 2 (B), Milk 100ml - 2 syns, Banana

Lunch - Pasta, tomato and courgette sauce with bacon

Dinner - Portobello mushrooms stuffed with chicken, quark and parsley, Pinapple
Snacks/Other - Clementine, 2 Babybels (A), 2 x 125ml dry white wine - 8 syns
Total syns -10

Activity - none

So tired and headachy today that I really couldn't be bothered with tea - I wasn't really hungry and I didn't want to faff around with anything complicated. So I decided to just do baked mushrooms with a really easy stuffing, the work of five minute.

I was very good girl and actually measured out my wine.

When I did Slimming World previously, I would never have bothered with this. I would have made wine a treat and not bothered tracking it. I still have a feeling that this is a bit extreme, but I've made the decision to do this properly.

I had a sneaky peek on the scales at work today and I have already lost weight this week, so I don't want to sabotage myself now.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - 25g Porridge - 4.5 syns, 1/2 tbsp nutella - 2syns, 140ml skimmed milk - 3 syns, Banana

Snack -

Lunch -Frozen baked potato - 1.5syns,  35g Feta (A), Salad and chicken.

Snack - Clementine, 20 Almonds (B)

Dinner -Pasta, tomato and courgette sauce with bacon
Total syns - 11

Activity - none

Good food day. Not so much on the activity. I had planned on walking to work but in the end I needed my car straight from work, but on the plus side my skipping rope arrived so I will have a go with that tomorrow.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - yogurt 1.5 syns,  grapes and satsuma
Snack - 2 regular babybels (A), 5 aniseed balls - 5 syns
Lunch - 4 Aldi cripsbreads - 6 syns, 1 tin of tuna with tomato and basil sauce - 1.5 syns, salad
Snack - 20 Almonds (B)
Dinner - Cod,Frozen veg, Quark based herby sauce, Boiled potatoes
Total syns - 15.5
Activity - 1 hour leisurely dog walk

Went slightly over on the syns because of the aniseed balls (possibly, can't remember if I had 4 or 5) but all in all I'm happy with my first full day doing the plan. Tomorrow I have a half day and don't start work until 4pm so making my lunch shouldn't be a problem. We'll see.

Also, I just found out about a new Indian takeaway in Leyland called - wait for it - Thindian. They do reduced fat/calorie Indian food so if you're a Northerner, it's a double pun! I feel it's my duty as a slimmer in Lancashire to sample this new establishment. Unfortunately, it's not in the plan this week so I will report back later...

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast -satsuma, weetabix, a splash of skimmed milk

Snack -

Lunch -cheese swirly

Snack -peach yoghurt

Dinner - aubergine and feta pasta

Activity -none, except non-stop appointments all day.

While I don't officially start SW until tomorrow, I thought I would try to keep to the plan most of the day today. The feta was weighed and counts as a healthy A, no healthy B and there will have been syns in the swirly and the milk that I couldn't calculate but probably well within 15. The yoghurt was 1.5 syns.

I'm trying to get organised for next week so I'm trying to do my menu. I'm using padlet to do a week layout with movable meals. Not sure if this will work but I think it might help help me sort out my shopping list at least.

I also came across a website called My Body Gallery where you can put in your stats and see who is the same weight as you (or as you'd like to be, I suppose). I think this is a good eye opener so I posted my stats on there as well. Even though you can see my face here, you can do an anonymity mask on this site which I did, pretty much because it looks kind of badass, or at least as much as I am likely to get.

Back at Slimming World

Started at back at Slimming World today. My weight was exactly the same as posted on Sunday, except they round to the nearest half pound.

I decided to do the photo diary thing as well, hence the pic.

My first thought looking at this is that I really need to sort my hair out. The second is that I'm not so much pear shaped as triangular. When I loose weight I loose it from everywhere, but when I put it on it goes on my legs. Yo-yoing had basically dragged my center of gravity south. 

The other thing that this photo does is really highlight just how much denial I have about my weight. Anorexics see a fat body when there isn't one. I see, if not a thin body, then someone more in proportion,  a bit taller, less of a double chin, not so obvious a spare tire and generally less bulgy. I think it's because I unconsciously pose in the mirror for best effect. I look for what I want to see. I fool myself into thinking my weight is "a bit more than I'd like it to be but not really a problem". In fact, this photo is the one that had the most flattering pose. 

If I'm going to be honest and open to really changing I should post one of the rejected ones...

Okay (*grumble*), here goes:

I don't think I need to say anything.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - fat free peach yoghurt, pineapple chunks

Snack - 3 crispbreads, about 70g olive pate

Lunch - Tesco large fish sushi collection

Snack -n/a

Dinner - Ginsters Steak Slice

Activity -none


Today was going okay until lunchtime. I resisted the urge to get a Subway and choose sushi instead. But after trying to get an appointment with the the nurse at my surgery, I was told that if I wanted to see her any time before next week I should call at 8am tomorrow. Now I know that if I do that I will spend half an hour in a phone queue so it's better to just go in person, which means getting up at 7.30 tomorrow, my day off.

Why does that lead to me eating a Ginsters pasty? Well, I realised that I'd have a hard time fitting in a shopping trip to get a birthday present which I had planned on doing tomorrow morning. This is because suddenly my to do list for tomorrow looks like this: getting to the surgery for 8am, joining Slimming World, possibly going to a nurses appointment, taking Max to the Vet, doing my weekly food shop, delivering said birthday present, coming up with something for writers group and actually going to writers group,

So the only thing for it was to go present shopping right after work (I finish at 8pm) which meant by the time I got round to tea it was about 9.30pm and I still had to wash my hair. And at that point I just needed easy food so down to the garage for a Ginsters.

Excuses, excuses... I know. I wish I could say it was worth it. All I can say was it was okay.

It's the organisation thing yet to be resolved. I do my food shop on a Tuesday, so by Monday I'm usually tired and want to eat something quick and easy.I know this. I just need to come up with a strategy to get round it. A slow cooker meal might be the way to go. Meal planning is definitely the way to go.

On the plus side, I didn't use the excuse of my last night before slimming world to buy a bottle of wine so that's a teeny bit of progress.

Food and Activity Diary

Breakfast - n/a

Snack - Lion bar

Lunch - salad with feta, crisp breads with veggie pate.

Snack - flapjack, aniseed ball

Dinner - prawn and feta zoodles with spinach and artichoke, 2 glasses of white wine

Activity - none

So I only just started to do the food diary thing today, after the flapjack. My problem on the whole is organisation. Today I was more on the ball than usual. I made a salad for work and brought in snacks. The problem is I didn't eat the healthy snacks. I bought a Lion bar at the corner shop and got a flapjack from the charity sweets at work. This is not self-discipline.

Perhaps I should just go out to work without any money. My mother would be horrified; she has a rather Swiss attitude to carrying cash at all times. Perhaps I could have an emergency £10 at work

My activity today is nonexistant as normal. I thought about starting to walk to work again, even though the foot will protest (doc says it's okay though) but then I remembered I am taking delivery of a bulky parcel tomorrow, so will have to put that off.

Looking back over my old posts, I used to do a bit of the Wii Fit. I hooked my Wii up last week (to try to watch Amazon Instant Video, to be honest) so maybe I should try and get up early tomorrow to do that. Again, if I'm honest, something I'm not fantastic at.

I think today, I will just have to say "It's a start", not necessarily the best start, but a start.

Weigh in - 17st 7.8lb

Uggh! I'm actually kind of disgusted with myself.

The irony is that I have been running a weight loss club at work and since I started in January I have put on 10kgs (22lbs/1.5st).

Yesterday, I ordered a skipping rope. This is me being optimistic regarding foot, but bloomin' heck, I need to get some cardio in.

Also, maybe it's time to go back to Slimming World. I am obviously not my own best keeper.

Rediscovered

Goodness, it's been a while since I've been on this blog. In I'm only posting today out of coincidence. I was bouncing around random blogs and I must somehow have been log on via Google and it brought me here.

2012

It's quite fitting really. When I was last posting on this blog I though I had such a long way to go but in the two years since then I've set myself back hugely. I've recently been looking at photos from 2012 and although I know I wasn't happy at them at the time, now I realise that I looked so much better than I thought.

 

I'm in a bit of a funny place at the moment; a motivational dip if you will. Last October I broke my foot and although I was a little over what I weighed last time I posted here, it wasn't anything dramatic. But since then my activity level has fallen through the floor, my discipline when it comes to food is more or less zero.

 

2014

My foot hasn't healed and all those things that I thought were barely activity turned out to be hugely important. I can't jog, can't zumba, can't body combat. The problem is that those were the things I liked doing and now I am stuck with the things I don't: swimming, cycling, gentle walking. I find them frustrating and so I struggle to motivate myself to do them.

There is another thing that has made my rediscovery of this blog rather timely. This morning I realise that my brother's wedding (which has been years away for as long as I can remember) is actually only next year.

I have a year to get my act together. I don't want to be a short dumpy bridesmaid again.

But it's more than that. I know that loosing weight comes with downsides. I've done the loose skin thing and the stretchmarks and the fortune on new clothes and still feeling like the same fat girl. Positive body image is a good thing, but good health is another and I can already feel the aches and pains that the extra weight is causing. I don't want to have full blown arthritis in my forties. I don't want hip replacements or wheelchairs or high cholesterol.

So, let Wobbly Bottom Girl recommence!